Rawring Heart

My heart , haha . No one cares about it . My family also does't care about it , it hard to say . What they only think of is study . Study ! Study ! Study ! Is that the most important ?? It important but should we just only think about studies ? Is it wrong to have fun . My parent doesn't allow me to go out . Even if i wanna hang out at a cafe near to my house . He only want me to do what he likes and how about my like ? Isn't that important to . If he think when we go out we would do bad things , then they are not smart enough . My parent also never obey their promises . They only make me feels happy and give them some good result and then they would crush my heart . They would give excuse for not obeying their promise . I'm not a good person either , but i would always try to be my best . I have this dream and i want it to be reality and not just a dream . Okay now , about my heart . I always wanted to have a girl which i can be happy with her and she also gonna be happy with me , but i don't have any . Every time i felt in love with any girl that i met , she would but in love with someone else . They would not give me a chance to prove my love , how could they give me the chance if they were always looking for handsome and good looking guy . They only want the good looking boy and also the thickness of your pocket . I have been locking my heart and keep my love to myself . What more can i do , tell them how i feel ? I have done that . My live was a disaster , one minute i was happy then the whole week i would be sad . Only my friends that make me happy . I always thinking how am i suppose to get out from this house , not to run away but to relax and clear off my mind . For me to tackle a girl is so hard . It's almost like impossible , because i'm not a handsome guy . Many people says that i'm like an Hindustan boy , haha , it's just i'm mix a little bit with ?? No idea ,back to the story . I'm a tall boy , now days i don't kno why it's hard to find a tall girl . Infact i'm not that tall , it's standard for my age but not for girls . They were all short , no offence but it's true . I don't have any special girlfriend because i'm not handsome , i'm not famous and e.t.c . sometimes my friend also hurt my feelings . They would go out and hang out with their firend without asking me to join them . I don't have motobike so i think the reason is they don't want to waste time to fetch me and join them . But if i go out they would be the first one to know . Haha , what can i do . They all have their own life . This is my feeling before i knew my frieands now . Now i have a lot of wonderful friend . They were all kind n i enjoy hanging out with them . They really care about me . They make me happy . My friends have so muny attitude , and their attitude makes us happy . With all their funny n lovely character , hahahaa . Always making me laugh .